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Our Hopeless Love

February 21, 2017


“Hey, you forgot to release my hand, we can’t be seen together, remember?”

Why can’t we be like that?

I love you and you love me. That’s all that I want to know.

So, why do you have to tell me that you are still in a relationship with her when I’m already fallen too deep for you?

The Heartless Kind

February 7, 2017

"Why?"

"I just ..."

"Why?"

"I still have to wander around. I will keep changing. I am not done changing. I thought you are the best place to settle down, but ..."

"Why?"

Going to Hell. Together.

January 21, 2017

One day in Ankara, my friends and I were discussing a chapter from someone’s book when one of them said,
“I remember, from when we live together before, that you said something like this about people who don’t believe in Allah, ‘it’s their own fault. The signs is everywhere but they can’t see it. They choose to close their eyes.’ I totally agree with you.”
I. Was. Arrogant.
“They are stupid. They are ignorant. They deserve a place in hell.”
Turns out I am the stupid and ignorant one.

Books Without Borders

January 14, 2017


The last book that I read in 2016 was “Rumah Kertas”, originally titled “La Casa de Papel”, written by Carlos Maria Dominguez and translated by Ronny Agustinus.
This novelette is so thin, yet the storyline is so wild, absurd, so crazy. In the novelette Dominguez drops many author names, such as Baudelaire, Conrad, Garcia Marquez, Goethe, Huidobro, Julian Barnes, Marosa di Giorgio, Martin Amis, Pallière, and Vargas Llosa. I’ve heard some of them. But haven’t read any of them. I felt lost. I really want to read all of them. Though I know for sure that not all of them is in line with my taste. A very uneducated taste.
“Let’s travel the world to open and broaden your mind”. I am surrounded by that jargon. Man, people are so difficult. They need to travel to open their minds, can’t they just meditate and have an out of body experience or something?

Kata-kata Kasar itu Dari Mana Datangnya?

January 11, 2017

Mungkin ada yang masih ingat kisah Nabi Muhammad Saw yang diludahi oleh tetangganya. Dan semoga juga tidak lupa dengan apa yang dilakukan Rasul terhadap tetangganya itu.
Saya lelah melihat kata-kata kasar bertebaran di linimasa. Padahal katanya junjungannya adalah Nabi Muhammad.
Mungkin juga kalian ingat cerita Ali bin Abi Thalib saat Perang Parit. Ali memilih untuk berhenti berduel dan tidak menebas leher musuhnya karena ia diludahi. Mengapa? Karena Ali marah. Dan ia tidak ingin menghabisi musuhnya dalam kondisi marah. Ia ingin berperang hanya demi Allah semata, bukan demi nafsunya.
Cobalah tengok dalam hati masing-masing, apakah kalian melakukan itu semua karena Allah, atau hati sudah mulai dirasuki amarah dan kebencian?
Kata-kata kasar itu keluar dari lisan dan tulisan kalian semata karena Allah?

Mantan, Pahlawan Tanpa Tanda Jasa

January 9, 2017

Jadi gue abis buka-buka catatan kegombalan partner (ya, gue punya diary, bodo amat, siapa tahu jadi buku), terus teringat pernah ada satu dialog seperti ini.
“Kalau kamu putus dari aku, enak amat yang jadi pacar kamu nanti, sudah susah-susah aku didik biar tambah cantik luar dalam, malah dia yang nikmatin hasilnya.”

Pakailah Sepatu Gue Sejenak, Kawan

December 23, 2016


Tanggal 10 Desember lalu, gue duduk di antara 3.500 orang yang menyaksikan Pandji membawakan bit-bit komedinya dalam sebuah pagelaran bertajuk Juru Bicara.
Nah di antara semua yang dia bawakan, yang menurut gue paling berkesan adalah saat dia membicarakan media. Salah satunya kurang lebih seperti ini:
“Pas gue lagi dengerin khotbah, khatibnya bilang gini, ‘kemarin saya baca berita seorang pemuda membunuh ibunya sendiri, kemarinnya lagi saya baca pemuda yang lain membunuh pacarnya sendiri.’ Ya terus gue mikir, wah bapak khatib kebanyakan baca Pos Kota nih. Ya kalau yang dibaca macam Pos Kota, Lampu Merah, jelaslah kriminal terus setiap hari.”
Rasanya saat itu gue ingin teriak dari lubuk hati terdalam, IYA BANGET PAK, IYA BANGEEEET!!!